There is an old adage that “seeing is believing.” With this adage, it is customary that for a person to believe something, there must be some sort of visual proof. Yet our world is filled with many unexplained phenomena and spiritual truths that only a well-tuned eye will see. This well-tuned eye must possess an element of faith.
As an intimacy anorexics (IAs), we have allowed doubt and cynicism to dominate the way we think and view the world. We know that we lie, and thus we doubt that others are telling the truth. Our own failures are obvious to us, and thus we don’t trust the actions of others either.
Anorexics carry this lack of faith and trust into our relationship with God. We can’t see or touch God, so we don’t believe He has the power to change our lives. The Apostle Thomas illustrated this in his response to the resurrected Christ. Although he had walked with Christ for several years and listened to the teachings of Jesus on a daily basis, Thomas still doubted when told that Christ was alive after the crucifixion. Thomas wanted physical proof that Jesus was alive. (John 20:25)
Many of us who struggle with addictions do so because of a lack faith. Faith that something unseen exists and that this unseen has power to change our lives.
“Came to believe that a power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity.” - Step 2
The second step in a 12-step recovery program requires that the IA come to believe in a higher power. This higher power is a spiritual being; a being not constrained by the physical, as we humans are. This spiritual being is capable and willing to restore us to sanity – a healthy, productive, connected life. This higher power is the one true God, who sent His one and only Son, Jesus Christ, to save us.
Without faith it is impossible to please him, for whoever would draw near to God must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who seek him. Hebrews 11:6
Christ calls us to faith – to believe and take action without physical evidence. This faith rests in a conviction that Christ is who he claims to be, and faith that he is able to touch and restore the lives of all men who diligently seek him.
In this walk to freedom from anorexia and addiction, we must earnestly seek God and wholeheartedly believe that He can and will heal us. The intimacy anorexic who wants “sanity” restored in their life must take the first step in faith. After taking the first step, we must continue to walk each day along the path of faith. Our actions, the small decisions we make each day along the way, must reflect this growing faith. A faith in a God who is greater than what we can see and hear and touch. A God who is a marvelous and infinite spiritual being, but also a God who loves so much that he sent his Son to earth to live and die amongst us.
Jesus said to him, “Have you believed because you have seen me? Blessed are those who have not seen and yet have believed.” John 20:29